I didn’t have an easy life but always thought I had not much to complain, that I was lucky for so many different reasons. At some point past was past and life seemed to give me a rest, a peaceful and blissful time. Maybe I was rewarded to be always positive and to always try to be a better person whatever happened. I started to have faith. You have the power to change yourself and your world! You are protected and guided! « To succeed we must first think than we can. Deep and profound changes and blessings await you as you freely give your energy to help others »! I believed in all that but now I wonder.. how do you do when you have no energy left ? When you realized that storms are coming again and again and will always do? And that being honest, respectful, kind, generous is not helping anything or anyone, not even yourself ? How long can you keep hope that life will give you back?
It’s quite funny how you can be taught than the worst is never necessarily behind you! You can let go of past, anger, regrets or worries as much as you want, it might give you some peace of mind but won’t change anything of tomorrow’s shit. Digging endlessly through stones and roots and having someone telling you « if you have blisters all over your hands, pee on it and keep going ». That’s pretty much how I picture life at the moment.
We are so tiny in the universe and we, human race are just a second in the universe’s life. So put your ego down, you have no way to make a difference.
In relation to that one thing keep giving me energy and lust for life, no one can have total power on us. You are born free. So please, give you all the chances to realized your dreams because life is not going to serve you these on a plate and if it does, believe me, it’s just a question of luck.